So as I may have mentioned a time or twenty, I’ve been working throughout this 2009 year to lose some weight. I was not overweight in high school, but college and law school took their tole on me and my workout schedule and well… life happened. I’ve done the diets and lost the weight. And then gained it. And more.
I decided this time would be different. I started a new job this year, and a new life. I’m done with school. I’m starting my real career, this is what I’ve been working for, well, forever. So I needed to now focus on my health and being happy with not just the numbers on the scale, but my reflection and my activity level. Above all, I want to know that I’m respecting my body enough to give it what it needs and not over-tax it with extra pounds and cheeseburgers.
The reason diets don’t work is because they’re too restrictive. You can’t stick with them. Or I can’t, anyways. So I decided okay.. let’s take this easy. Let’s make a series of small changes. First, cut way back on pop. I am a coke-lover and I decided that I would only drink it when I was out at restaurants, and then only occasionally. No more pop in the house. Then I decided to try to cut back on the number of processed foods I ate and make more things from scratch. I’ve tried new recipes and learned how to cook (kind of). I then focused on drinking more water. Then I added in jogging. Then strength training. It’s been a process, a build up of small changes that I’m comfortable with and I don’t feel deprived. Sometimes I eat arby’s (mm curly fries). Sometimes I eat Sonic. Sometimes I have coke and a bottle of wine and skip a week working out, life happens! But above all I’ve stuck to the overall plan– never give up. Make more healthy choices than unhealthy ones.
It hasn’t gone quickly. I’ve lost and gained and lost more (and gained more). But as of weigh-in this morning, I’m down 20.5 pounds from January 4 (my official start day) and it feels great! The clothes my mom bought me for Christmas that were too tight fit. The capris I bought for vacation last year that I was too lazy to return fit. My favorite suit I bought my first year of law school– fits! I feel healthier, I feel like I have more control over my life. I don’t feel like weighing too much is a permanent condition I’ll get used to– I’m changing it.
So what if it took me 7 months to lose 20 pounds? I’m not done. Because even if I’m only losing 2-3 pounds/month, at least I’m losing and eventually I’ll get to where I want to be. When I look back on 2009 I won’t say, well there is another failed resolution. Maybe I’ll go on a diet this year. I will say wow, I lost 20 (or 30 or 40) pounds this year and I feel great! And most importantly, I’ve made changes that I am comfortable with and can live with forever.
Now time for a confession: Way back in April, I wrote a post with the rewards I was setting for each goal I reached. The first reward was supposed to be a massage or facial and man was I looking forward to that! But, this week I finally got my bonus check from a case I worked on for the past 9 months or so, and I wanted to treat myself. I’m starting a side photo business, and I have really been wanting this lens that was way too expensive. Well, I bought it!! I feel like it is an investment because it will allow me to really expand my photographic style and hopefully it will pay for itself through my photo business. But– because my next reward was supposed to be (another, cheaper) lens that I will now probably not get… I decided to make this my reward for the bonus and the weight loss and I’ll have to wait for the massage. Just more motivation to get there quickly, right??
I’m still not going to employ drastic measures for weight loss. But, I may try to tighten up my strategies a bit to speed things up. I would really love to lose another 15 pounds before my vacation, but I will not stress if I don’t make that goal. Mostly, I’d love to tone up my arms so more so I am more confident walking around mexico in strapless or spagetti-strapped tops. The nice thing about vacation though is that I’m just going with B and umm he knows what my arms look like so whatever! It’d be nice to like the photos we’ll take of us there better though.
So in conclusion for my random weight-loss thoughts and beliefs… I’ll say this: I’m so excited to reach this goal. I’ve been playing with the same 20 pounds throughout the past 3-4 years and I’ve finally broken through the barrier. I’m on a path to being thinner and healthier, and by the way, my first ever 5k tomorrow!!!